June remembered the bitter taste left in her mouth when some of the sailors refused to pay for their clean laundry.
“And he said unto them, What things? And they said unto him, Concerning Jesus of Nazareth, which was a prophet mighty in deed and word before God and all the people:
And how the chief priests and our rulers delivered him to be condemned to death, and have crucified him.
But we trusted that it had been he which should have redeemed Israel: and beside all this, to day is the third day since these things were done.”
—Luke 24:19-21 KJV
Emptiness and fear filled Susanna’s heart. Susanna couldn’t understand why Orion, or June, or anyone else, for that matter, couldn’t just respond the way she wanted them to respond.
“Who is a wise man and endued with knowledge among you? let him shew out of a good conversation his works with meekness of wisdom.
But if ye have bitter envying and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth.”
—James 3:13, 14 KJV
In the search for justice, Susanna lost Sheriff Howie and hope for her future. She allowed the waves of pain to push aside searching for God’s purpose.
“And she said unto them, Call me not Naomi, call me Mara: for the Almighty hath dealt very bitterly with me.”
—Ruth 1:20 KJV
As a new bride in Agate Beach, Oregon, Susanna resented the Sheriff’s long absences, even if he was tracking justice.
“But mine enemies are lively, and they are strong: and they that hate me wrongfully are multiplied.
They also that render evil for good are mine adversaries; because I follow the thing that good is.
Forsake me not, O Lord: O my God, be not far from me.”
—Psalm 38:19-21 KJV
“Ye shall not tempt the Lord your God, as ye tempted him in Massah.”
—Deuteronomy 6:16 KJV
“And he called the name of the place Massah, and Meribah, because of the chiding of the children of Israel, and because they tempted the Lord, saying, Is the Lord among us, or not?”
—Exodus 17:7 KJV